Its weird. I've been thinking. I mean, just after today. And I've been thinking. Not sure if i wanna think. No, definately not. Don't wanna think. But... after what it said...
i mean, i know its probably stupid, but now its sorta confusing.

I'm confused.

But aren't I always?

Yes...No...Maybe.

Not always. Ok, maybe most of the time, but not always.

Still....

And its not even like it's serious thinking really. I mean its just thoughts.

I get it. I mean, i get it. You won't, cuz you probaby don't really know, but i do, and i sorta get it. I do.

Still...

But its different, ya know?

Well, of course not, but still..

I think i like using saying that, "but still"

I think i use it a lot.

Finding lyrics online gives me something to do than just reading fics. not like reading fics is bad, cuz it's not. But sometimes... ya know?

Yah....

This is a good song.

It makes me want to love. I haven't felt like that... in a long time.

Ever?

probably, but then again, i am a hopeless romantic.

I miss wanting to love sometimes. Its hard just being lusty all the time. Its tiring. it takes a lot out of you.

Its like Karen and Tuck Everlasting. I'm really listening to the words, and ok, its weird, but it makes me want to love somebody.

But not just anybody.

See, now i'm going to go on that thing again, where i try and find the perfect guy, but its like he doesn't exist for me, or if he does, i just don't see it cuz i'm so fuckin blind to whats around me.

oh well